This queen don't need a king.

I find it funny that most blog sites want you to select the category before writing the post. I can't do that. 

As the creative being I am I kind of just write, like this article for example, I have no idea where it's going but I'm quite excited to find out. And sure, I might re-write it a few times and I might delete most of it before publishing it, but that's just how the creative process works, at least for me. 

So, I did want to talk about relationships. Yeah, that took a turn. Since this is my first article on this lovely website we have here I thought I'd start my legacy off with something deep and meaningful because who ever liked something done the easy way?

I just got out of a relationship myself, and when I say just I mean two months ago and when I say got out I mean ran the other way. See, this person I was with (let's call this person Inn) was... How do I put this in a nice way... Damaged beyond repair. And I don't mean that as in Inn couldn't help himself, I just mean that he just would not let me help him no matter how hard I tried. I'm a firm believer that you should love people for who they are and not try and change someone just so they fit that profile you deem as "perfect" so I didn't try to change him, I just tried to save his life. See, Inn was a party person, and when I say party person I mean that he didn't eat, would "only" drink 5 beers on a good day, has completely turned his day around so day is night and night is day and would like a bit of help from various substances. This person also didn't have any ambition in life, was happy working a minimum wage job, at a place where he's on a cero hour contract and living with his grandparents.

 Now, I understand that you don't know me, so you don't know that I moved out from home and moved country at the age of 15, that I have been working from the age of 17, that I then moved country again and worked until I started university at the age of 20, that I decided I wanted to transfer in to second year of another course so I studied two modules on my own to be able to make that happen... I'm an ambitious person, I'm one of those annoying people who will tell you that the glass is half full and that you can't have a rainbow without a bit of rain, and that the grass is greener on the other side. Yes, I'm that annoying. 

So you see my dilemma now, how is a person who enjoys their freedom and has such big dreams ever going to be happy with a dead-beat partner? I wasn't. I mean for the first two months I was very happy, hadn't had a relationship in a while, was excited about having someone adore me and it was all just fun. Then I woke up and saw that he didn't want anything for himself, that making me happy was the most important thing in his life, that we had to be in constant contact or he'd think that I didn't love him anymore... It just got exhausting and I felt like I was drowning in a relationship I didn't want to be in anymore. So I got out, I was honest and I got out. 

The aftermath of this horrible breakup and all of that is a story for another time, comment down bellow if you want me to tell it because it's juicy. 

However the point of this post isn't for you to immediately thing that I'm a horrible person for leaving Inn or for you to feel sorry that my wings were almost clipped by this person. The point of this post is to open everyones eyes and reassure people that you it's ok if you find yourself being in a relationship you don't want to be in. Just remember that when this happens you need to be honest with yourself and with your partner and go your separate ways, it's not fair to either of you to be lying to yourselves. People deserve to be happy.

So there you go, that's my first blog post over here. Hope you all enjoyed that little story, and remember to let me know if you want part 2 where I tell you about the nasty breakup.

Have a nice day, wherever you are in the world! 
xx