Addiction: the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming, as narcotics, to such an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma.

Addiction is part of many peoples lives. Whether they have an addiction, or they know someone with some sort of addiction. There are many kinds of addiction, and people can be addicted to many different things including drinking, drugs and gambling. My addiction is no where near as serious as these, but it's an addiction all the same. It's entirely my own fault as well. 

I have a caffeine addiction. The main offender being energy drinks. 

It's gotten to the stage where if I don't have an energy drink, I get headaches or feel sick, or even both sometimes. I'll feel dizzy if I don't have some sort of caffeine so I have to have tea or coffee if I start getting lightheaded, which helps a bit but usually doesn't get rid of the other symptoms or if it does its only for a little while. 

All day I've been contemplating going to the shop for an energy drink. It doesn't even matter which kind, although I do prefer Monster and Relentless, even Red Bull on occasion. It's like a craving, only stronger. I can almost taste the energy drink in my mouth, and I feel like I need it. 

I don't even use them for the energy, I know they don't do anything - I genuinely just like the taste and prefer them to other drinks. It snuck up on me really, because I only used to have them every so often and now I'll have one or two each time I pass a shop or someones going to the shop. Yesterday I had 6 energy drinks. That's my highest so far. I mean 4 of them were the smaller cans so in that sense I only actually had 4 but still. That's a lot considering I could have just chosen juice or a different drink instead. Especially since I couldn't get the drink from Co op where I usually get it so I had to walk further round town to find something. 

After researching online and speaking to a professional, I have decided that I am going to have to cut down first, and then once it's reduced down to maybe one a day and then having other drinks, preferably water in the place of the energy drinks I would of had. Hopefully it will help the withdrawal symptoms. I'll keep you all updated on my progress. 

If you think you are addicted to something, anything, please seek help. There are specialist places that can help. You can find a list at: http://www.addictionsandrecovery.org/recommended-lists.htm.

 

Published by Danielle Kirk