I dreamt of mushrooming. Not taking them to get high or go on a spiritual journey of sorts, but picking mushrooms in Colorado. Chantrelles, porcini, puffballs, morels, and oyster mushrooms. I noticed many amanita muscarias, the red capped mushrooms with white spots featured in the Smurfs. Someone I was with wanted to eat them to explore their magical hallucinogenic effects, but I said no. I was not up for it!
I had a really nice time in meditation this morning. I enjoyed about an hour of humming, sitting in silence, and then manifesting with love. This time I visualized a life in Colorado. I climbed to the top of a mountain, and saw myself as this beautiful, vibrant, thin, healthy, and happy being with long, lustrous hair flowing in the breeze, much like Pocahontas. Then, I embraced this beautiful man, climbed down the mountain with him. A montage of rich experiences unfolded: meeting our friends for a fruit luck, skiing the soft white slopes, spinning around on our skis, and traveling between a minimalist home in Colorado and one in California. Ah, it would be so nice to ultimately be self-employed as a health coach and writer with the freedom to roam and enjoy myself with steady income streaming in.
Physical symptoms: I don’t really have any. I had a really amazing night of sleep. Probably 12 hours. I was clearly exhausted. I let myself sleep in, and it felt so good. Bad breath upon waking. Super white tongue, which I scraped. Faint and light headed upon standing. I feel clear mentally and emotionally. Rested and ready for a day of chilling. I did an enema and had some orange, watery BMs.
Today’s weight is 120.2 pounds, 8.4 pounds down from Day 2. My collar bones are protruding once more. I feel and see that my body is coming back, and this makes me quite happy.
I laid in the sun outside my townhome, and listened to a sun meditation. I feel a lot more grounded now after laying on my towel over the grass with my feet bare. I feel much more connected to the earth and the sun. I moved inside after about 45 minutes or so, as I don’t want to burn or overexpose myself. I did sweat a bit, and my armpits are emitting the classic fasting body odor. Good to get it out! It’s like my body is taking out the garbage through my pits.
At 1:11pm – I took 1 tsp of Healthforce Intestinal Drawing Formula in 8 ounces of water to facilitate detoxification and prevent autointoxication, which I think happened to me last time. It actually tastes really good. I will see how this goes, and may or may not take it throughout the rest of the fast.
I felt rather productive, and blogged about my other days of fasting. I took my dogs for a brief walk, and reached out to a friend of mine in Hawaii whom I miss. I even had the energy to vacuum up all the dog hair in my apartment. Success!
In the afternoon, I connected and walked with my aunt for nearly 5 miles. I believe our souls had a contract for her to come into my life at this time. We had no relationship up until about 4 years ago, the time when my spiritual awakening kicked into full gear. She is awesome and reminds me a lot of my deceased paternal grandmother. It’s like I lost my grandmother--and my parents to a certain extent, for now at least—but I am cultivating a strong relationship with my aunt and uncle, who are newly vegan! Such a testament to not trying to change people! Instead, simply providing others with information and encouragement allows others to make the change themselves on their own time! I feel so deeply grateful to have them as supportive, loving family members in my life. I had some major realizations and emotional releases while talking to her, which I am sure will profoundly influence and shape the coming months.
At the end of the day, I felt good, but quite tired. I walked far today, taxing my physiology, expelled a lot of emotional energy in my heart connection and emotional release with Carol, and used a lot of mental and creative energy in blogging.
Before bed, I took three Healthforce Intestinal Movement capsules and will see what effect they have on my body. I may not take them again on the fast. I don't know! Staying open and learning as I go.
My usual nightly rituals ensued with the generation of a lengthy gratitude list, metta-meditation wishes for all beings, and the reading of recovery literature. Namaste.
Published by Taylor Norris