Faith. 

Religion. 

Church. 

Beliefs. 

These are all things that I've struggled wth for years now. And it's not something that's easy to ask for help with. Yet it seems to be so easy to fake that I'm doing fine with it. 

I've grown up in church, so it feels like a habit for me to participate in things. But I feel so painfully out of place when I do. There must be a way to fix that feeling, but I don't know what it is. 

I see other people my age with such strong faiths, and even people still in their teens. It makes me feel so incredibly inadequate and like I'm a failure for not being "as good" as they are. 

I guess I'll just have to figure out a way to get myself back on track like I was when I was in elementary school. It'll definitely take time, but I think it's worth trying.