What's up guys it's Dallas! I'm back again, and yes...I realize it's been a while and I'm sorry but I had some technical difficulties that I had to figure out. But here I am!! Okay, let's get started.
So I thought today I'd give all of you readers a glimpse into my life and at something that really is a big struggle with me. Something that you probably wouldn't realize just from reading my posts or stalking my Twitter. Something that is actually really personal, at least for me...even though I don't really understand why it's so personal, it's just one of those things you know?
So I've grown up in this itty bitty town in Michigan. My graduating class had like 70-75 kids in it. I met my best friend in kindergarten and we've been friends since then. I've grown up with the same people my entire life. I never had to move towns or switch schools. I have a small group of friends that I only met because of cheerleading. And honestly all of my friends would tell you different than what I am about to. If you asked any of my friends about me, they would tell you that I don't shut up. That I never stop talking and maybe even that I'm outgoing. They might tell you that I was on class council all through high school and on the National Honors Society. They'll tell you I was a cheerleader and was not shy at all. But that's not true. Because if you didn't ask anyone who knew me the way my friends do, or even if you asked my family members, they would tell you how incredibly shy I really am.
My parents are both really outgoing people. Like, my dad can find someone to talk to literally anywhere we go, and my mom is like that too. So they both are really confused as to why I'm as shy as I am. I love meeting new people and getting to know them, but it takes a lot for me to actually start a conversation with someone. Like I've gone to different youth conferences and things and even though I really want to meet new people, I just can't gain enough confidence to do it. I usually end up sticking close to the people I already know or even flying solo if I don't know anyone.
Since I've been around the same kids my entire life, going to college and starting over is going to be really difficult for me. Now don't get me wrong, eventually I'm gonna have to suck it up and gain some confidence and talk to people, but I'm already nervous about it and I haven't even left yet. I'm sure that once I meet someone who has the same interests as me (Harry Potter, YouTube, ect.) I'll be okay, but it's a matter of actually physically going up to someone and asking them what their into.
Oh, and what about boys? Like getting a boyfriend? I've never had a boyfriend because literally I'm too shy to talk to a cute boy when I see one. Unless I'm with a friend who goes up and talks to him or knows him and even then I'm nervous that I'm going to do/say something idiotic and so I retreat into my shy shell. Ugh, definitely going to have to work up some nerve for that part of my life.
If anyone has some words of wisdom for me or advice on how to gain confidence, that would be great. I think it's funny that I can cheer and dance in front of so many people but I can't talk to a boy without feeling nervous. Anyways, I'll write again soon! Peace out homies!!!
Published by Dallas Gomez