A letter to the kids who bullied me

Dear ___________,

wait dear doesn’t seem to be the right word for you, after everything you have done to me. You may not even know because I never told you. You may not even have thought about how much your words hurt me back then. Let me tell you. You basically destroyed me. There was no day where I didn’t hide in my room crying because of you. There was no day where I didn’t wonder if I am worth to be alive. Sometimes I wondered if you would notice what you have done to me if I wasn’t there anymore.  I was so close to giving up my fight. Luckily I have an awesome family. If it wasn’t for them nothing would have changed.

I am still afraid of you. Did you know that? I haven’t talked to you for about two years now but every time I see you I feel pain inside me. I want to run away and hide like I used to but I have grown now. I have done things you will never do. I have experienced things you will never experience. I probably have more people who care about me, who love me for who I am than you. I know you only hurt me because I have what you wish for.  A family who loves me.

Having to be around you in school every day was hard but it made me who I am. It made me strong. If you wouldn’t have bullied me I probably would not have gone to the summer camp I went to and I would have never met the amazing people there and if I wouldn’t have met them I would probably have been too scared to go to the US all by myself. If you wouldn’t have bullied me I wouldn’t have started to write because for me writing was a place to escape to when I felt down. My stories helped me to handle real life and not to give up. All the stories had to do with my situation and just like in real life, they turned out to be a happy end for me.

In the end, I think I have to thank you. Thank you for destroying me because without having been destroyed I would not have been able to build myself up to the new person I am today and to the person, I am proud to be.  Because of you, I met some of the most important people I have in my life right now. Because of you, I made my dream come true. Because of you, I learned that I can reach everything I dream of if I work hard enough and don't give up. And let me tell you, I will never give up

Maybe to refer to you as dear________ is the right thing after all because I can look back on everything that happened with confidence now. 

Your sincerely

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