Did you ever imagine or think that failing or having your heart broken with something is a beautiful thing? Did you ever think that not having what you want is the best thing that happened in your life? Do you believe the negative things in our lives can lead to positive things afterward? Did you ever think that sometimes it’s just beautiful to fall apart?

 

Reading these questions will make us think and would remind us of all the failures and bad things that happened in our lives. Maybe you’re asking yourself, “Did it lead me to somewhere good?” To explain this topic further I would like to share my personal experience. I’m a person who plans my goals accordingly with time. As much as I can I want to achieve things in a certain amount of time. So lately I’ve been struggling with my quarter life crisis for I think I’m being left behind. I’m getting old and I feel like I still have lots of things to do. I’m a year late with my plans and I feel lost and stuck with everything. I started pushing myself into my own thoughts trying to figure out how to achieve it myself. I’m a Christian and my faith was shaken and I pushed God away from me. I relied on my own strengths and abilities. And you know what happened after? I found myself in that same situation, tired emotionally and physically. I’m falling apart inside but I’m showing everyone that I’m okay. I’m falling apart and kept my distance from God. I know to myself that I can’t take it anymore. Then, one day I received a sent me a message that changed and woke me up. I suddenly asked God, “Is this the reason why you won’t give me what I’ve been asking you?” Is this the reason my plans got delayed? In that very moment, my heart cried out to God asking for forgiveness, for failing Him again.

 

Sometimes in life, there’s a beauty in falling apart. It is a stage of reminding us that God is in control and we don’t have to worry. It’s about telling us that we can’t do it alone and we can’t do it with just our own strength. Yes, sometimes our plans may not go as we planned. But remember; only God knows what’s best for us. He knows when and where we will have that something we are praying for. He has the better plan than our plans. All we need is to trust Him, have the courage and have faith that our dreams will happen with God as the Architect of possibilities and impossibilities.

Published by Tina Maria