How can I explain what it is like living with a mental illness day in and day out ? I don’t think there really is a way to explain what it’s like as my view maybe very different to someone else who suffers. However for me it feels very lonely and I constantly feel like I am drowning. It’s like a weight pulling me down holding me back, stopping me from being able to get better. This is a feeling I have had for a few weeks now which resulted in me having panic attacks in work and at home. Having a panic attack is one of the scariest feelings the human mind and body has to go through. This lead to my most recent visit to the doctors and I wish the news I received was much better than it actually was, unfortunately this is just something I am going to have to deal with.

The next couple of weeks are going to be very hard as I am having to yet once again be weened off my current medication to get ready for something a lot stronger which I never wanted. However this is what I have to do to get better and find the Katie that is trapped inside. If all goes to plan I should gradually start to get better. Yes Generalized Anxiety Disorder will never go away and as much as I hate having to say it, it will always be a part of me. My aim is to get better within the next year so anxiety and depression is only a minor part of me. I want to find the bubbly and happy Katie who is being trapped inside by depression.


Published by Katie Simpson