“I’m an adult, I can do what I want.”
“Mom, I’m not a baby anymore.”
“I can make my own decisions.”
“Stop treating me like a kid!”

These are all things I’ve said to my parents time and time again. We all hit that stage in our youth where in our eyes, we are now an ‘adult’. That means we can make our own choices and decisions right? Well, after everything that has gone on in my life recently, I don’t think I want to grow up anymore.

In the past few months, I have depended on my parents for more than I have over the past 5 years. I still depend on my mom to shower me, and my parents to help me up if I was sitting on the floor. In May I was talking about moving out, getting my own place and starting my own life, now I don’t even want to think about doing that. Of course being 20 years old I still want all of those things, but knowing that I can’t even lift myself off the floor makes everything feel impossible. After spending everyday hanging out with my parents, and receiving their help with everything, I feel closer to them than ever before. I am completely spoiled with love and affection and I don’t want that to change. It’s unfortunate that it took this horrible accident for me to feel this way, but I am so grateful that I do. I’m so thankful that as young as 20, I am able to get out of the “My parents just don’t get me,” stage. Now I want nothing more than to spend time with them, and bond with them as much as possible.

Since I was little, my parents have always told me that my brothers and I are welcome to stay at home as long as we are in school, or have a job. Pretty sweet deal right? I didn’t want any part of that. I’ve always wanted to move away as soon as I was done school, find a job as far from Windsor as I could. For some reason, I’ve always had this crazy sense of independence, and thought I could do anything on my own. Now, I couldn’t be more thankful for my parents offering that deal to us. Of course, like I said earlier, I still do want my own place, and to start a life of my own, but not for a while. I want to spend as much time with my family as I can. Getting a second chance at life really makes you cherish what you have, and not want to waste anytime with the people you love. I want to become best friends with my parents and have a relationship with them that will make people want the same.

When your young, you want to be on your own, do your own thing, and be your own person; I definitely felt that way for a long time. What we don’t realize as kids, and what I’m now starting to realize now, is that your parents will be there for everything in your life, and they are the only people who you can trust 100% to not screw you over. They are there to help you, tell you when you’re being stupid, and guide you on whatever path you choose to take. My advice to you, give your parents a chance. Hangout with them one day, go to lunch or for coffee, listen to what they have to say, ask about their day; you’ll learn a lot more than you think. You’re parents are people too, they’ve all been there.

I don’t want to grow up yet. I want to stay home, and live the life I know for as long as I can. I want to go out for dinners with my family, and celebrate birthdays and anniversaries. I want to be closer with my family than we already are. I want that sense of security and love that I always feel when I’m at home. I want to cherish every single second with my parents, and every minute I’m at home. I can wait to start a new life, I like mine. I know I’ll love the life I create on my own, but I can definitely put that life on hold for a few more years. What do you think? What’s your relationship like with your parents? Is it worth a few more dinners and coffee dates? Comment and let me know your feelings on growing up.

Until next time beauties,

xoxo Mads

Published by Maddie Mallen