I’m baaaaaaack. Again. Hopefully for real this time.

I’m going to be honest; I fell out of love with blogging, which is why I haven’t written anything since February of 2018. Part of that is because I’m really buckling down on my novels (there are two now, and I have six or seven more book ideas waiting to be fleshed out), but it’s mostly because I spent a good, long time in a horrible season of life that I really didn’t want to talk about.

I still don’t want to talk about it, to be honest, so I’m not going to. There are a few relevant changes to my life that I’m going to throw out here, mainly that I moved to Texas in January and work at an orthopedic hospital in a non-athletic training role. I’m hoping to return to my one true love, secondary school athletic training, at some point (sooner rather than later), but I needed a break to recover. 

Sometimes life comes at you hard, and you’ve got to hunker down and hope to survive. That’s what I’ve been doing for a lot longer than I’d like to admit. I’m finally able to see the metaphorical light at the end of the tunnel, so I’m going to try to return to blogging. I probably won’t be as active as I was in my prime, but I’m shooting for a post every two weeks. I’m going to apologize in advance for the inevitable rustiness; I’m long out of practice in writing in my own voice, but hopefully I’ll work the kinks out soon.

Now that the housekeeping is done, here’s what I actually want to talk about: the health and wellness journey I’m beginning next week (because I’ve already bought my groceries and meal prepped for this week, and I definitely don’t have the time or money to just throw it away and start over). I’m doing this because, while I’m the most mentally healthy I’ve been possibly in my life, there’s still a lot of room for improvement, and my physical health is just… really, really bad.

In my defense, my physical health has always been bad; I’ve just been more aware of it lately because all the distractions that were my declining mental health have gone away. I mean, it’s really hard to be concerned about your negative relationship with food and exercise when you have to stay at your brother’s house for a few days so you don’t do something stupid. Now that the mental block is gone, though, all I can see is how terribly my mental health has been reflected in my physical health. I’ve developed some really frightening habits and a lot of negative self-talk, and I want to focus my energy on breaking those.

I’m taking some inspiration from Blogilates and doing a ninety-day fitness journey, with as much emphasis on my mental and emotional fitness as well as my physical health. The timing is perfect; I’ll finish in the beginning of December, which gives me plenty of time to reflect on what 2019 had in store for me as well as get my goals together for 2020. I’m aiming to post on every other Monday (though I’ll most next Monday to kick things off before settling in) about my journey, and then having a kind of life recap at the end of the month. 

So what exactly is this going to look like?

Since I'm focusing on both physical and mental health, I’m going to use this blog to track both aspects. For physical health, I won’t be posting progress pictures or measurements. I’ll be taking them as a way to track my progress, and maybe at the end of it I’ll post the before and after, but honestly, I'm trying not to put too much emphasis on the aesthetic part of this journey. This is about improving my health more than managing my weight because my weight is fine. I fit into the same clothes I have been wearing for years, so I’m not overly concerned about a number on a scale. I want to get in shape and form healthy habits; if that comes with weight loss or a more aesthetically pleasing body, then fine, but that’s not the goal. 

What I will be doing, though, is tracking what I eat, food-diary style. I’m not counting calories or tracking macros or anything like that. I just want to be cognizant of what I’m putting in my body, and hopefully this will prevent me from eating an entire bag of chips over the weekend because it’s 2pm and I’m bored. I will be posting those, as well as my weekly grocery list. I’m also going to post my water intake and exercise calendar. I’m also going to do some fun stuff like my go-to running playlists, my favorite leggings to work out in, and my love/hate relationship with my Fitbit.

Physical health goals for the month: less processed foods, less added sugar, and working out five days a week.

Mental health is probably going to be more fun than physical health, largely because I hate exercise! Part of the reason I want to do a challenge for ninety days that begins in September is because my mental health always starts to decline in the fall. While I’m depressed year-round, there’s definitely a seasonal aspect that makes the fall and winter almost unbearable. However, this is the first year I’m actively rooting for summer to end, so I’m trying to coast off that momentum and see if this can’t get me into a good headspace once the dog days of winter hit. I am the person who yells “you can’t exercise your depression away” the loudest, but I’m hoping that, by establishing healthy habits now, they’ll be so ingrained that I’m able to still be productive when the bad days come. 

I want this part of my journey to nourish my soul, so there are a lot of different balls I’m going to be juggling. I’m going to focus on my creative projects, self-care ideas, mental enrichment, and keeping my house clean. That last one may seem weird, but you can always get a fairly accurate gauge on my mental state by the cleanliness of my home, so that’s one thing I want to pay close attention to. You can expect to see my skincare routine, the books I’m currently reading, a little bit about my non-blog-related writing projects, a lot of moaning and groaning about Duolingo, and my monthly habit tracker in this section. Like I said, a lot of different hats in the ring here, but hopefully it’ll all flow well.

Mental health goals for September: develop a nighttime routine, write for one hour every day, a blog post every other Monday, and finally finish Boomtown.

Finally, on either the first or last day of the month, I’ll do a monthly recap. This will be a life update of things non-challenge related as well as a way to reflect on the month’s goals and create new ones. This will likely be shorter than what you’re used to from me (which I’m sure none of you will complain about) but will also be more along the lines of what I usually blog about. 

I’m really excited to get back into the swing of blogging and beginning this health journey. I’ll kick things off next Monday and then begin my bi-weekly posting. I’m excited to see where the next ninety days takes me, and hopefully you’ll come along for the ride!


Published by Kylee Jackson