Okay... you may have to take the next thing I say with a big gulp of wine because no one, not even me, want's to admit the following.

Am I the only one that gets a pang of jealousy when they see their facebook friends suddenly succeed in their job, display the huge engagement ring on their finger, or even just buy some amazing make up that you've been saving up for?

That may make me sound like the worst 'friend' ever, but how many of our facebook friends are we actually genuine friends with anyway? 5? Maybe there are people out there who are friends with a lot of their facebook friends and I'm the odd one out, but I doubt it.

I may also be the only one who feels a gutting feeling when you've worked really hard in your job and relationship and still see no results, but again, I doubt it. 

I recently felt this when I found myself unemployed because of a fantastic thing called a '0 hour contract', I had left my job but it didn't matter because I was going on holiday with my best friend and we were going to have the best time! Until I came home and I realised I didn't have anything to do, it was then I embarked on this amazing and scary internet journey, I've never felt so scared and excited but it's come with it's fair share of set backs and restrictions as we are now currently living on one wage until I start university again in September. 

Not only that, but you feel that everyone around you also starting out on YouTube seems to be getting all of the good opportunities and you're sat here still doing the same stuff they are and not getting any recognition. I'm sure my time will come, and I'm so happy for all of my friends around me doing so well at the game of life, but sometimes you're sat around thinking 'Wtf is going on and where is my opportunity!?'.

 

Thank you for listening to me ramble, I promise I'm not all doom and gloom!

 

L xxxx