OH MY GOD! My has been absolutely HORRIBLE. I've been saying all day how I hate life. I'm beyond over everything and everyone. Today was supposed to be a good day, it started off perfectly, until BS started happening. Shockingly I had the story of the day but unfortunately I've been down with a case of the ex. I don't get it? What the hell does he want from me? It's getting so bad that I barely want to deal with him.
He's going through somethings right now and claims to really need me to be there for him. I recall a time when I really needed him to be there for me, but he wasn't. I still hold a lot of resentment because of it and that alone makes it difficult for me to be there for him like he needs. I 've tried to explain to him NUMEROUS times, being there for him as much as I was in the past. Constantly giving my all and getting nothing in return, has left me with nothing else to give. Am I wrong? He always responds, 'NO, THAT'S NOT RIGHT", how isn't it? I know it's not right of you to have received so much and given not as much, but shit happens.
I'm not mad at him, i'm PISSED at myself though. My hard headed self knew better, but stayed. Even when shitty traits and true colors were showing, I stayed 10 ten toes down. Our relationship had g0tten so bad I was starting to hate myself. You can only take so much hate before you actually felling..... what word am I looking for?
Alone
Worthless
Ugly
Ashamed
Foolish
Useless
Pitiful
A burden
Used
Unappreciated
Bitter
Numb
I think you get the point. 

Published by ShylahBoss Lee