My days have been filled with music and writing. It is all I seem do to. I am happy, because now I finally have time to do things I actually enjoy. And for the first time in a couple of weeks life feels great again.

Recently I have been losing sleep over the fact that I am suddenly unemployed and have no clear idea about my future. He has also left to make his dreams come true and now my home feels cold and empty. Yes, I have never felt anything towards him, but once you get used to someone being around all the time there is no going back. And when they decide to leave you are being left unsure about everything. What will I do now? Will they come back? 

I enjoy solitude, I enjoy being alone with my thoughts. Yes, it can get scary at times, but I think it is a good thing. When one has learned how to be alone, they become independent. They do not need anyone else. They embrace the opportunity to live for themselves. I would like to say that I have mastered the art of being alone. But still, sometimes I feel that it would be nice if someone were around. People confuse being alone with loneliness. I am not lonely, I have me. I can do things when I am alone, like write short stories, work out and listen to music. And I thoroughly enjoy it.

So after all, I am happy that you are gone. Thank you for giving me the chance to live. I know you will be back at some point, but right now I am happily enjoying solitude. I hope you are too.

Published by Adeliina Pahapill