"Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest" Matth 11:28

I enjoy weekends, saturday a day for rest and relaxation and sundays a day for church. Its two days every week where I have the chance to rest, relax and catch up on much needed sleep. Weekdays have a tendency to rob me of much needed sleep since I have to get up early at 04:00 am to go to work.

What I do not like about weekends is the feeling of despair and hopelessness. How can I despair and be hopeless when I just said I enjoy weekends? Because weekends have a tendency of reminding me of ongoing unsolved problems in my life. And for me personally it is our financial situation. In my country banks and financial institutions are closed on Saturdays and Sundays. So that is the two days in a week where we do not get any angry letters or angry calls from collection agencies. Its difficult to relax and enjoy the weekend when you know that everything will start up again on monday. On monday will be another week with angry letters and angry calls, another week of knowing you want to pay your bills, but you dont have the money.

For you it could be something different. Perhaps weekends are the time when you get a rest from cancer treatment? Two days where you do not have to go to chemo and you are trying to regain strength. But you are constantly worried what will happen on monday when everything starts up again.

We have something in common dear reader. You are caught like me in a situation you cant control. So its easy to worry in weekends when we know everything will start up again on monday. And its difficult to relax in your mind when you know on Monday the trial will continue. But there is a solution, and I am here to tell you what it is.

shutterstock_95786491When I awoke this saturday morning the first thought that came to my mind was "I dont have to go to work today, so now I am going to enjoy the day." The next thought was this "but on monday everything starts up again, and right now we do not have that much money. Do we have enough to buy what we need today? What if we cant buy what we need for food today? We are supposed to have our paycheck on monday, but what if something happens and we do not get it? We need it on monday, what are we going to do if...."

It did not take my mind long to flip into overdrive with anxious thoughts and steal the peace I first felt. For you dear reader it might be thoughts of fear, fear of dying, fear of the physical pain that will start up again on monday or fear of an uncertain future caused by chaos and a life situation you cant control right now.

All those "what if" thoughts came to a grinding holt in my mind when the Holy Spirit just whispered one sentence "you are dead with Jesus Christ".

shutterstock_130335083Suddenly being reminded I am dead with Jesus Christ changed everything. For the next thought that came to my mind was this, "if I am dead with Jesus Christ I do not have to worry, dead people have no need to worry and no need for money". And I got out of bed with a smile on my face and a relaxed mind for the first time in years.

I know this sounds almost naive, how is it possible for a grown man with serious financial difficulties to not care and go on with his life as if it had never happened? The answer is simple, because I am dead. I do not longer live, I am dead with Jesus Christ, buried with Him and raised with Him, seated with Him at the Fathers right hand. I do no longer live, and since I do no longer live but Christ in me lives it is His responsibility and not mine to live My life. (Matth 6:25-34)

I know this sounds almost to good to be true. And I know it sounds almost like I am advocating we should all give control over our lives to Jesus Christ and let Him carry the responsibility. But is this not what the Bible says we should do when it tells us He is Lord? (Rom 10:9)

This is what the Bible tells us to do, to give over control of our lives to Him, to the one who died for us the one who bought us with His blood. And this is what the apostle Paul is talking about when he says he is a slave of Jesus Christ. (Rom 1:1). Slaves have no legal right to decide over their own life any more.  So when we claim Jesus as our Lord, we give over control of our life to Him and we become His slaves. Then it is only natural, and biblical for us, to give over control of our lives to Him and let Him carry the responsibility.

cropped-shutterstock_54771055.jpgTrue freedom is found in being a slave of the Lord Jesus Christ. Our Master and Lord is a good Lord, He is the one who has promised to heal us, provide for us, protect us if we only choose to die from ourself. (Deut 28:1-13) But we have to die to become His slaves, and we die by choosing to believe He died for us for our sins. And this is the solution that gave me a relaxed weekend and stopped all the "what if" thoughts dead in their tracks.

Right now you have a situation in your life that makes you worried, fearful and filled with anxiety. Perhaps it has been going on for some time, or perhaps it has just started. But for the first time in your life, you find yourself in a situation you do not know how to control and that scares you. Have you died from yourself and given your life totally over to your Lord Jesus Christ? I know it goes against everything we are taught in this world, it feels almost dangerous to do so since we are told that responsible adults takes responsibility for their own lives. But sometimes we cant, sometimes things happens to us we cant control and then we realize we cant control anything in our lives. Then we realize how much we need Him as our Lord for everything. And He is a good Lord, He can be trusted to make your life a good life. A life where your needs are met, but we have to die first for Him to become our Lord. (Deut 28:1-13, Rom 3:22, John 3:16)

I got out of bed with a smile on my face and started the day. All through the day I remembered how I am dead with Jesus Christ and I had the most relaxing weekend in a long time. I had to go to the grocery store, but instead of being fearful I would not have enough money I suddenly discovered I had more then enough. So I was able to buy exactly what we needed for food for Saturday and Sunday (in my country the grocery stores are closed on Sundays). But the best part of all is this, I had hope.

My circumstances had not changed. No money had magically appeared on my nightstand or in my bank account. And I still did not know exactly when we would get our paycheck or if it will be big enough to cover our expenses this month.

Normally I would have been so worried, anxious and stressed out in my mind I would have been without hope. I would have not been able to hear the Lords direction on what to buy to cover every need for Saturday and Sunday. And I would have had miserable weekend. But not this time, and everything had changed because of me considering myself dead with Jesus Christ.

Even my prayer life changed, suddenly I found hope again when praying for our financial situation. It has never been difficult for me to pray for others, or to pray for needs we have. But to pray for our financial situation has grown to become more and more difficult lately. Perhaps you can identify? When you have struggled so long, prayed for such a long time, and nothing happens it is hard to pray and expect a change. But when you pray knowing you are dead with Jesus Christ everything changes. So for the first time in a very long while I prayed about our financial situation with hope again, with hope and expectancy.

shutterstock_373940377This is what our Lord is talking about when He says we should not worry about tomorrow. When He says we are to take up our cross and follow Him, and how He is going to give us rest. (Matth 6:25-34, 11:28, 16:24) But first you have to become a slave of Jesus by choosing every day to die with Him.  (Rom 6:11)

He has the same offer for you. You to can get to share in this and rest from your situation. There is no need for you to carry that burden of cancer anymore. That burden of guilt, shame or worrying about the future. He is standing ready to carry it for you. But first of all you have to die and become one with Him by choosing, actively choosing each and every day to believe He died for your sins.

I can not promise you that your situation will change right away. But what I can promise you is this, I can promise you freedom. If you choose to be a slave of Jesus (Rom 1:1) He promises to take charge of and responsibility for your life. Dead people never have to worry about anything because they have no needs. (Matt 6:25-34). Instead you can rest assured your Lord will take care of you. He will take responsibility for your life and your needs and meet every need. (Deut 28:1-13). You have everything to gain and nothing to loose by choosing to die today by believing Jesus died for your sins.


Today it is early Monday morning, and I have to be at work in 2 hours. I know my brother in law who does our paychecks at work will do this months paycheck today. I know we are almost broke right now. We have enough money for food and groceries today, but not tomorrow. So we really, REALLY need him to give us this months paycheck today. But we dont know how big it will be. We know how big it is supposed to be, but since our wages are garnished we know from experience my brother in law sometimes forgets to garnish our wages.

That is of course a good thing for us when it happens. But it comes back to bite us later on. If he forgets one month to garnish our wages he has to do that later on in the year. If he remembers the laws in my nations says we are to have certain amount left each month to live on until next months paycheck. And that amount is actually not bad, for two people it is enough. Its not a luxury life, but its enough. But if he forgets to garnish one month he has to draw double the amount the next month. And that could result in us having nothing left of our paycheck, not even the amount we where supposed to have.

And on top of this we are still trying to sell our house. Its not easy because it has a lot of hidden construction errors and mold damage. The guy who built the house did a very poor job, so water has been leaking for several years from outside the house without us knowing it. And mold has been growing in the house without us knowing about it until it was discovered during the pre sale inspection. Now we know why we have been sick for several years, and why we feel so much healthier in this apartment we are living in right now. But we also know it will be a challenge for us to sell the house.

And as if this was not enough, we have not yet been able to pay our web provider for this month. If this months paycheck turns out to be big enough we could perhaps be able to make it. But we do not know. It all depends on my brother in law and if he has remembered to garnish our wages every month as he should have.

So you see life is not easy. Its challenging, and normally I would be here right now with a knot in my stomach dreading this day. Normally I would just be pleading with the Lord if it was any possibility for me to just go back to bed and be spared from facing this day. But not today.

Today is different, I am sitting here writing this totally relaxed with a smile on my face. I am actually expecting something good to happen today.Why? Because I am dead with Jesus Christ and dead people do not have any reason to worry. All of the above things are not my responsibility. Its my Lords responsibility, the Lord Jesus Christ and I know He is a good Lord who has promised me already to provide for me, to meet all my needs. (Deut 28:1-13)

So make sure today to die by choosing to believe He died for your sins. It is worth it to be a slave of Jesus for He is a good Lord.

Published by Apostle Ernie apostleernie@outlook.com