So week two of kinda giving up blogging, it really hasn't affected me as much as I thought I would, I was kinda convinced I would go about everything differently. 

And look at me with my lack of spine thinking of going back to the daily blogging but hear me out. 

There were good things about the daily tasks I did, one of the better parts was making me realise I could do so much more with my time, being forced to do that. 

And the other side is of course the whole making myself my own bitch, in addition to the cold showers and the go awful pistol squats it just made me subjugate myself and that's great. 

I was listening to redbeard again today and he talks about how we should aim for lack of completion. Because finding completion is awful, watching people plateau in middle age and just kinda muddle through it compared to people like dan pena or even intellectuals who go on until the end. It's a constant struggle I suppose, but in the end it's better than a meaningless couple of decades. 

I keep have these issues where I don't know what I want to do, I'm uncertain about how far or what to do, and that's good I reckon, I want to struggle and eat shit for a while, it makes you more alive. 

The feeling of being bottomed out (not in the sexual way) is nice, to just kinda shrug all the work and just do it anyway, that's the way it should be. 

So I'm gonna finish here as I have things to write and cal scruby to listen to.

But yeah the daily blog might be coming back. 

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