Okey so apart from having Generalized Anxiety Disorder I am usually a very bubbly, happy, smiley and a very strong wield female so those who know me can tell instantly when I am not feeling myself which to me is a good thing but also a bad thing at the same time. When I am having an awful day and I mean an awful day, I feel very drained and lifeless and have no concentration what so ever to the point it actually gets very embarrassing. This doesn’t only happen at home; this happens at work as well. I’m not the brightest spark as it is I am very ditsy and clumsy but when I feel extremely low this gets 10x worse.

Yes, I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder and this should stop me from being myself however when I am struck with an obstacle I do not let it stand in my way, even if it takes every ounce of energy I have, I will fight and keep fighting until I beat it. I have to keep fighting hard to not let anxiety and depression rule my life. The question I ask myself is why when I am feeling weak I don’t want others to know that is how I am feeling especially when I am mentally and physically drained and I feel that if people knew this they would snigger behind my back making me feel worthless and weak. But I am not weak! Yes, I have to take medication to help me feel better and I cannot choose when I am going to feel alright and when I am going to feel awful but weak is definitely not what I am! I will keep fighting this and will not let anyone or anything stand in my way. I am still Katie no matter if I have a mental illness or not.

Published by Katie Simpson