I did it! I actually did it. To be honest, I didn't really think that day would actually come, but there it was, right in front of me.

On June 13th, I was lucky enough to have all my friends and family, who love and support me, together at one BBQ. This wasn't just any BBQ, it was the BBQ that would gather everyone in celebration of my roommates' accomplishments and my accomplishment of graduating college! This day was filled with so many emotions and memories and was a day I will always remember.

If this day was such a happy day for me, why do I feel so lost and depressed? I just accomplished something that some people can't say they've done. I spent years getting to this point and now I feel like a failure. Why?!

Post graduation can be an easy transition for some, but can be hell for others. So many of my friends had their lives planned out for post graduation and had jobs lined up. For me, on the other hand, I did not. I was never confident in what I was wanting to do with my life after college, and didn't really know what kind of job I was looking for. I thought I wanted to be in some kind of marketing field, but after I graduated, I didn't feel like I learned much about marketing. Even as I was looking at jobs online, all the marketing positions I found, I didn't feel like I was qualified for.

This made me want to stop job hunting, and made me feel like I was going nowhere, and that I was going to be stuck having multiple part-time positions for the rest of my life.

Now that I'm living back at home, everyone keeps asking me what I'm doing, am I looking at jobs, what interviews do I have lined up.. blah blah blah. I can't help but want to break down and cry, because the only interview and jobs I am qualified for, are those part-time positions that have nothing to do with my degree. I feel like I'm being constantly compared to others and everyone else's kids who are doing way better than me.

I am so proud of myself for graduating college, but man, this post college phase is hard. I want to feel like my college degree is going to benefit me, but honestly, right now, it's not feeling that way.

I know that I just graduated about a month ago, and I still have time to find a job, but this has been a hard month for me. All I can do now, is keep searching for jobs, looking at job hunting in a different perspective, and know that there will be something out there for me.

This is such an important time in my life. It's a time where I can really figure out who I am, and starting creating a life for myself. I don't want to look back and think about how horrible this time was for me, instead, I want to learn and grow from this experience. Graduating is a big accomplishment and everyone should be proud for doing so.

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Published by Victoria Harris