I forgot how to feel, and a 2017 bucketlist Like 0 Twitter Dani Savka Follow Jan. 11, 2017, 11:46 a.m. in Life and Styles Views: 707 Like us on facebook "At the end of the day, your feet should be dirty, your hair messy, and your eyes sparkling." - Shanti I sat there staring at this beautiful quote. This hadn't been happening. I knew that deep down, I wasn't feeling this way. And at the start of a New Year, it's the last way I wanted to feel. But reading that quote shook something inside. I am done. I am done. I am done. I am done repeating patterns that have become habitual. I am done engaging in toxic relationships because I felt that no one worth it would come along. I am done with men telling me what's "wrong" with me, why I need to take a good look in the mirror. And here lies the most beautiful opportunity after I've dived into the same insane patterns over and over: I remember that I can choose again. I want something to change...but what? I'd racked my brain resolutions for this New Year, yet 'd been hesitant to come up with any. I know myself better than to set "goals" for myself - primarily because my plans almost never happen the way I expect them to (read: life in general, anyone?) I've been craving solitude, diving deeper; stronger connections with friends and family. I'm desiring an infinite depth of strength, sense of self, and passion. I don't think that I've lost those meta qualities about myself, but they have definitely been buried through ego trips, the self-doubt; indulging in relationships I knew weren't good for me, but only satisfying by external circumstances. But it's time that I take heed to me inner truth detector and listen to what my soul truly wants: adventure. So, out of being a little crossed between "fed up" and realizing something's gotta change, I came up with a (still-growing) adventure list for 2017 - because resolut Take a new class every one or two weeks to throw myself out of my comfort zone and shake up routine. First class to try: Burlesque dancing. Solo trip to San Francisco. Go to several coffee shops and eat my heart out. Get back to Honolulu. BUTI Yoga Certification. ---> this one really intimidates me, but I love this practice Rock-wall-climbing. Ballroom dancing classes/tango. But this one already relates to #1. Start a donation-based non-profit ballet class organization for underpriveleged children. Write always...even if it doesn't sound right. And... I don't have a " 9 or 10" just yet. It isn't a perfect list. But if there's anything I can do to pull myself out of this strange, self-induced rut... it could be this. It could be a signal that adventuring and leaping into the unknown is what my very soul needs at this point in time. Published by Dani Savka Share Mail Messenger Twitter Pinterest Linkedin Comments Related Article Life and Styles DEAR WOMEN Life and Styles Escape from the BS Life and Styles It Is Still August Right?