I began studying abroad in Jordan on June 5, and since then I've had a lot of emotions. The whole experience has been like a roller coaster, where sometimes you're up and happy as can be and then five minutes later you end up at the bottom of an extreme low. I love traveling and seeing new things, and I've done a lot of it, but living in another country is nothing like I've ever done before.

I've learned a lot more about the culture than I would if I came here on a week long trip. I've been in Amman, the capital city of Jordan, for a month and a half now, and there's nothing I would exchange for this experience. i feel a lot more pressure to assimilate into the culture than I would if I was only here for a week though, and that puts a lot of pressure on me because I'm blonde and very obviously a foreigner here.

Sometimes, it's really hard to be here. When I leave the house a lot of people, especially men, stare at me and that makes me uncomfortable. When men stare at me I usually feel like running back into the house, but I have to go to school, so there's no other option sometimes. I've also made a lot of very good friends here though, and they help me feel more secure in public because if there are people around me I don't have to worry as much.

I've learned a lot about myself too. I've learned a lot of things that trigger me, but I wasn't really expecting. Like the staring, and also the fact that none of the traffic signs are in English. I would really like to be able to read the signs on the road! My self care has gotten a lot better while I've been here, because if I don't take care of myself while I'm here I won't be able to make it through the days.

I'll be here for two more weeks, and I can't wait to find out what else this great experience has in store for me. 

Have you ever lived in another country?

Published by Brianna Lusby