I'm proud to say I'm a Christian. I believe that there is one Almighty GOD.

For me it was a clear decision to become a Christian when I was young since I grew up in a Christian home and community. Faith in God was a well-practiced religion of praying before meals and bedtime and going to church and Sunday school each week with my family.

Especially in my younger years, from Grade 6-9, I had a strong passion and connection with God. Praise and worship music was my way to glorify and praise Him. I would pray to God and I would see His answers in scripture, through my consciousness, and other visual cues through my day.

Reading the bible pretty much every day before bed had become routine and I would know and memorize references to think about throughout my day. It build up my morale and character of who I am today.

Unfortunately, as I became an adult and had more responsibilities, I found myself losing contact with God and my relationship with Him wasn't the same. I wanted it to be the same, I wanted it to be more even. However, I struggled to motivate myself to bring me to that place again.

I think I even became jealous of those more commited to building their relationship with God. I just fell into this pit where I was lonely. At this point I had moved to Winnipeg for my massage therapy education and lost touch with my hometown friends. I isolated myself from making new friends. I wanted specific people to be my friends. Christian friends that would push me to grow.

I made myself lonely and depressed and I knew all I needed was to reach out to God and reach out to others as well. Nick's mother, Shanti, had given me that nudge and supported me in her prayers and provided me with some new devotional books and recommended a psychiatrist.

Going regularly to a psychiatrist for a couple of months helped push me to become more social to battle loneliness and gave me more motivation to go to church and read the bible more.

I'm still a long way from where I want to be but I know there is progress and I have a greater desire to build my relationship with God again. I had fallen for the devil's temptations to separate myself from God and do my own thing but that obviously got me no where.

We all have our battles and we all fall but God will always be there to pick us up. We grow, learn and change as a person from our mistakes and we can move on as a better, wiser person.

So who is God to me? He is the ultimate comforter, father, healer and teacher. I don't think anything I have been called to do as a Christian from the instructions in the bible or the instinct feeling the Holy Spirit has ever been a burden. From all the moments in my life, I always find the ones that are the best are the ones when I was obedient and in a strong relationship with God. What would I be without Him?!

A couple of verses that speak to me today are:

Joshua 1:9

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.

1 Peter 5:8-10

Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

<3 Ginelle

Published by Ginelle Elias