Forgiveness. 

This word has to be one of those words that never leaves my mind. 

But forgiveness itself, in theory, makes complete sense.

We forgive people, not to allow them to move on, but rather to give ourselves permission to do so. 

And as much as I understand the concept, putting it into motion, feels impossible. 

How can I forgive them?

How can I forgive even one of them?

How can I forgive him?

I feel like it's a crucial step that I need to take, so that I can allow myself to live to my fullest potential.

But I am angry.

I am hurt. 

How on Earth is it possible to forgive someone, who did something so seemingly unforgivable?

And yet, I know there are people that are capable of forgiveness of this magnitude. At this moment in particular, their strength seems unimaginable. I don't know how one person could ever be so strong, but I commend them.

Where I am in my journey, is not at a place where I am capable of forgiveness. 

At least not yet.

However, I am at a point where I know that one day I want to be able to forgive. 

I now know that I don't want to be angry forever, I don't want to be hurt forever, and I want to be able to forgive so that I can move forward. 

I don't know that forgiveness means that I won't feel anger, or pain, but I want to eradicate as much of it as I can, so that I can fill myself and my life up with love. 

So that I can shower those around me with it unconditionally.

"Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that." - Martin Luther King, Jr.

-Natalia Camarena

Published by Natalia Camarena