Your heart races as your arms and legs tremble. Are you scared? Did you have too much sugar? Are you sick? You pace around as you just can't seem to sit still no matter how hard you try. There are so many things you want to talk about and so many things you think about, it's like your brain is on overdrive. You remind yourself to breath and start counting from one to four as you inhale and exhale. Does this sound familiar to you? I've had trouble calming down when I get like this, and I still do. 

I can't exactly pinpoint what it is other than theorize the possible reasons why I'm that way. I don't want to say for sure because I am not qualified to evaluate myself. It has effected many of my relationships between people and have annoyed them as well. When I get these little energy bursts, I don't know what to do with myself because I want to do everything at once. I can't focus as well as I'd like to, and I end up hurting others due to the sole fact that I look like I don't care when I do. I forget things right off the bat as a result of not being able to focus when I have my little moments. You could tell me to pick up a pencil and I will forget what you said just as I am about to go do what you told me. Everything else I want to say is pretty much a continuation of Focus? from my personal blog, is what I am getting at. This has been going on since I was a little girl, and being a teenager on the verge of diving into adulthood, this issue I have is something I really want to try and resolve before it progresses. 

Now, what I do to cope with it, is something I have been working on for the past couple of months. Normally when I have one of my "energy bursts" as I call them, I like to try and talk things out. Now, the only thing about that, is I can talk on and on and on and it can be hard for me to calm down. Fortunately I have very close friends that I can share my thoughts with and help me organize things in my mind as I try to vent everything out. But before it gets to that point, I write. Many people tend to worry about it making sense, but as advice to those who are reading this, don't worry about it making sense because eventually it will. Write whatever comes to mind first, whether it be in a list, a series of doodles, what ever style you chose to put it on paper, do that. When your done, look at what you made and think of it as puzzle pieces. How do all of these things relate, or differ? How many different writing pieces can you make, or how do you make it into just one piece? It will be hard at first and you are most likely not going to do anything with it and scrap it. That is totally fine. But the more you do it and think about it, eventually you learn how to organize everything that you are thinking about onto paper. 

Another thing I do is try to do something I like. I go outside and take pictures, I play my guitar, or I listen to music. In terms of music, I can't really say what is relaxing because I find my fast paced, punk music I listen to very relaxing. Anyhow, sometimes doing the things you love doing like a hobby can help a lot with calming you down. In terms of focusing, planning things out and writing them in a calendar, planner, notebook, which ever way you remind yourself things, do that. Sometimes I write things on my wrists because I'm always looking at them when I'm going about my day. Setting reminders on my phone or putting alarms at certain times catches my attention as well and helps me remember what I am doing or what I should be doing. I specifically use google calendar and google keep to write down little reminders and set notifications so that I know what I need to do and remember, and also because I am always on my phone checking emails. It is still a working progress, but these are some of the things I do to cope with my little episodes. If you want more details of other things I do, any advice you would like to share, experiences related to this or feedback, feel free to comment. 

Published by Ariella D. Gaitan