Leaving Amman is the most intimidating thing I’ve faced recently. It’s more intimidating than coming to Amman, and it’s much more intimidating than moving away to college. It’s intimidating because I don’t know how to readjust back to living in the US.
    There are plenty of resources about moving to another country. What to expect, how to dress, and how to act are all laid out in clear terms without any doubt about what all these things mean. But everyone assumes that adjusting back to life at home is going to be easy, and I don’t think it will be.
    My same life, with the same hobbies and the same people, is waiting for me in the States. I’m not the same, though, and I don’t know how to balance the new life with how different I truly am from how I was two months ago. What do I say to the friends who have no idea how much I’ve changed? How do I tell them how much I went through in Jordan so that they’ll understand?
    My life is the same, but I am different. How I show that to the people around me without getting frustrated is beyond me, and I’m nervous about how I’m going to pull it off. I have a boyfriend waiting for me in the States and he’s expecting me to be exactly the same as I was when I left. I don’t know how that’s going to work, but we’ll see.
    I’m ready to go home and see everyone I’ve been missing, and do all the things I love. I’m nervous about adjusting back to life in America though because everything in Amman is very different and I don’t think I’m coming back the same way I left.


Published by Brianna Lusby