I wish I can rewind to the time when there was no pain behind my family's eyes when they smile.

I wish I can rewind to the time when we all laughed without guilt stabbing at our hearts.

I wish I can rewind to the time when I didn't feel like I was chocking whenever I said your name.

I wish I can rewind to the time when I didn't tear up whenever I came across a photo of you.

I wish I can rewind to the time we sat around that table and talked about what superpowers we would like to have.

Alas, I own no time turner and life is moving forward forward forward erasing you from my memory but not my heart.

Never my heart.

I hope you're partying up there, cousin.