If you don't know what NCIS is then one have you been living under a rock and second then you might not understand this reference but it was in season 8 Ep 14 where Kate's sister (Dr Cranston) is talking to Ziva and the dialogue goes like this: 



Dr. Rachel Cranston: what is it that you're looking for? What is it that you want? 

Ziva David: I want... something... permanent. Something that can't be taken away. Is that too much to ask?

In the show I believe they are talking about men or relationships but every time I hear this quote I don't think about those things, instead I am someone who answers the question because what I've been looking for, something that is permanent something that can't be taken away I have found in Jesus Christ.

I grew up in a family who followed Christ and believed in Jesus, my family taught me how to love Jesus, read the bible and live a Christ like life. To be honest being a Christian is not going to be easy being a Christian won't make your life perfect but instead for me being a Christian makes me who I am, knowing Christ I am able to surrender everything to him I am able to surrender my life to him and trust that he knows what's best for me.

Hebrews 13:8 states: 


And it's in that verse where I am like even when things in my life aren't permanent anymore from friends, relationships and jobs I know that at the end of the day that even if I have absolutely nothing left I still have an almighty father who is PERMANENT he is always going to be there for me even in my lowest points he is the same Yesterday, Today and Forever. That makes everything worth while because even when I feel like everything around me is falling apart and I am feeling like people and things just keep coming and going from my life. I am blessed to know that My God will never leave me nor forsake me but he is there for me throughout everything in my life.

Recently I haven't been my self tbh I have felt like I have failed in Life like nothing I do is Permanent that the things in my life keep coming and going and all i feel is alone and unloved but there is this song that I was listening to today by ELEVATION WORSHIP called  'O come to the altar.' Its in the first verse that is something so raw and personal to me it says:

Are you hurting broken within 

Overwhelmed by the weight of your sin

Jesus is calling

Have you come to the end of yourself

 Do you thirst for a drink from the well

Jesus is calling

O come to the altar The Father's arms are open wide

Forgiveness was bought with the Precious blood of Jesus Christ


Like how amazing is our Heavenly father even when everything around us feels like its gone, even though we feel broken and hurt from within us Jesus christ is always going to be there with his arms open wide for us. He will always be there even when we push him away he is still waiting for us to come back to him and be with him, He is never going to leave us He is an everlasting God. He is my something permanent.  

Published by Kylie De Guia