I am a girl in my mid 20s and I still don’t know which category I fall in, Tomboy or Girly. To be honest, I think I’m kind of in the middle because I have both types of traits in me. My family and friends sometimes tell me to behave like a girl, which makes me wonder, do I behave like a guy? And sometimes people tell me to be bold and loud and outdoorsy, which can also be for a fact that I’m an introvert and a shy person.

I still don’t know how to dress up properly, like a girl. I still prefer a simple pair of jeans and a tee to go out and at home, nothing beats my comfy pyjamas. Leggings or any other tight fitting clothes are still a no-no for me. I know no other hairstyle than a ponytail or a bun. Makeup is like mathematics to me, very hard to crack. I’m so old and I still don’t know any of the makeup or skin care routines that girls usually do. Of course, I love sneakers and have never worn heels in my life. And all these things don’t attract me either. I’m comfortable the way I am. Also, I eat a lot, a complete gastronome. Thanks to my metabolism, I don’t put on much weight even after eating like an ogre.

Then there are other things like, not being a sports fan. I know nothing about sports and I don’t enjoy watching any of the matches or games. Though I like adventure sports, but that’s not like the usual sports stuff people normally watch or play. I’m not into hard core action stuff either. I don’t like watching full on action flicks. I like watching romantic movies and I cry if the movie is really emotional. I’m a sucker for sob stories, which reminded me, that I cry a lot. In fact, I cry at the drop of a hat.

And then there are things which are sort of a mixture of both. Like, I can be practical as well as very sentimental at times. I am very sarcastic at times, but sometimes I don’t appreciate sarcasm at all. I can be detached as well as very passionate. My guy friends tell me stuff they would never share with a girl, but sometimes I’m like, “Dude, that’s way too much information, I don’t need to know that”. There are times when I want to be the prettiest girl around, who is the centre of attraction (provided someone does the makeup and stuff for me). And sometimes, I don’t mind going out in my sweatpants and loose T-shirt, without even combing my hair.

So all these things make me wonder, am I a combination of both?, a part-tomboy-part-girly girl. I guess, that’s what I am and I think it’s kind of cool because I don’t have to put myself in a box. I can be pretty flexible. I can mold myself according to the circumstances or my mood. I do have certain limitations, but those can be dealt with. I like spending time with girls as much as I like spending time with guys and if the other girl is like me then we get on like a house on fire. When I was very young, I wanted to change my self, may be under peer pressure or because being the odd one out really scared me. But as I grew up, I realized that everybody is unique and has their own personality. I don’t have to follow other people. I can be myself even if I’m different or weird. And now I have completely accepted myself the way I am and it has made me more confident.

So anybody out there, who thinks he or she is different and feels bad about not being able to put themselves in a particular category, trust me you don’t have to do that. Don’t try to follow or imitate others just to fit in. The day you will accept yourself and stop trying to fit in, you will become the real you and there will be people who would want to be like you. So keep on doing your thing and just focus on the things you have, not what you don’t.

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Published by Sonia Mannotra