I been getting it on my own I hate those females that are ALWAYS in relationships, ALWAYS in "LOVE", jumping from dick to dick because they don’t want to be "alone". Mr. Postman and I were talking about this last night. I learned a long time ago you can be in a relationship and still be alone. I know I've been bitching a lot lately about "dreamman" and the other guy, but that’s really me being mad at myself. I used to be one of those girls, being that I came from a broken home and just wanted to be loved, but you can't make someone love you. My love and care for people is genuine and comes from me treating people the way I'd want to be treated. I have to stop that, especially when working, it’s getting me in a lot of trouble.

When I do  business I do i do business on my own 

Nothing irks me more than when a man tries to convince me he has my best interest at heart. Like really my dude? Just stop, that doesn’t make me feel like

you love me anymore than I already did. Anyone that knows me, knows I hate  repetitive shit! I always say, "what's already known doesn’t need to be spoken about." You say you have my best interest at heart? Well then why are you having to reassure me of it? It's so funny too because the times when someone is reminding me they have my best interest at heart is when their trying to do some grimey shit. You don’t really have my best interest at heart because if it really came down to it, and you had to lookout for either yourself or me, I don't even need to finish this statement. You catch my drift.

Cause you ain't gotta watch your  back when you alone

 When I do something that ends up hurting me, it's okay because I did it. Now when someone who's supposed to have my back does ANYTHING to deceive  me, my serial killer psycho switch flips on and SHIT GOES DOWN. This is why I don’t have any friends and I'm not pressed on a relationship. The people closest to you hurt you the most, and I don’t wanna go to prison.

That’s why I'm lonely Yea it's very lonely it just being me myself and I, but it's less stressful. Even your bests friend in the whole wide world will lookout for themselves before you.

Solo Dolo Lonely Remember, as long as you serve a purpose in someone's life, they'll always keep you around.


Published by ShylahBoss Lee