They say that if someone is intoxicating your life you should let them go. I support that theory, my question is how can someone do that? 

I consider myself a very cold hearted person, but other people think otherwise. They usually say I’m ‘too kind’. Not that I think it’s a bad thing. But when it comes to forgiveness I’m pretty malleable. 

I have a small group of friends. Very few people know me well and when I let them in I usually don’t want to let them go. In my case there’s two people that I just can’t seem to let go of. A girl and a guy. The girl became a huge friend of mine back in high school, she was with me when my best friend wasn’t, not because she didn’t wanted to, but because she couldn’t. I’ve had a pretty rough path with this girl, she claims I’m still her friend, but not really, and I don’t blame her, but I just keep trying to make things back when we were really close. The same thing happened with the guy. Even though he’s probably bad for me, I seem to find him very interesting, he gives me some kind of power, like if I could change him. 

But why can’t I? I mean let go of the bad or the not so good friends of mine? My theory is, I’m pretty picky when it comes to making friends, and when I do, I don’t want them to go away for something stupid that happened years ago, I just can’t help but wanting to forgive and forget. 

Maybe it’s not just me. Maybe there’s people out there that feels the same way I do. Somehow you want them in your life but, have you consider if they even want you in theirs anymore?  If you are the one that keeps contacting them, there’s a pretty good chance they don’t want to talk to you anymore and that they’re just being kind. 

So, take it from me, there’s always gonna be people that you can’t let go of, but that doesn’t mean that they should stay in your life.. 

Published by Miranda Hernandez