"A diary is like a reproach, a perpetual reminder of our indiscipline, lack of application, weakness of resolve." - The Assassin's Cloak, An Anthology of the World's Greatest Diarists. 

For some diarists, particularly new ones, the above quote is true. It was certainly true for me before I started writing a diary properly. I attempted many times to stick to writing daily, and the result was pages and pages of 'I got up. I went to school. We had maths, science, drama...etc' and the name the next day and the next day. Of course, I was young then and only really beginning to write properly and discover a love for writing. It was around that same time that I began writing a fiction story called 'Nero the Hero and Max' about a boy and his dog. I wrote quite a lot, and then when I finally got to the point of introducing conflict, I stopped. Why? I don't know. Maybe the prospect of actually having to think of where the story was going next was too much for me back then. In any case, writing a diary was easier. All I had to do was write about my day. 

Extract from my first real attempt at a diary:

7th December January 2006 - Saturday

Today Tim was ill so we didn't do much. I watched Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban. My favourite character is Draco Malfoy. While I was watching it I was eating popcorn. My favourite part of The Prisoner of Azkaban is when Harry and Hermione go back in time, and my least favourite bit is when Hermione punches Draco. 

A year and a half later, and I had transformed into a completely different person. Where before I was still child-like, I was now a fully fledged teenager. Obsessed with death and all things morbid. Thinking it's cool kool to spell 'cool' with a 'k' and to swear unnecessarily. There is nothing that compares in embarrassment levels than a teenage diary. I used to hate my first diary, but now I realise that it was all just part of growing up and becoming who I am today. 

The first entry in the official first diary in the series entitled 'Jade's Diary':

Morning

I HATE MONDAYS!!!

espessilly (can't spell) today...Monday the 13th of August - 2007. 

I am tired, I couldn't get to sleep last night. But no school cuz its the summer holidays - whoooo! 

That's as much as I am prepared to share, because the rest of the page descends into swear words. Anyone who knows me today knows I never swear, and that's because I've never liked it. Even when I used to write swear words, or even say them in front of friends, it was only because I thought it was clever. I have nothing against people who swear (unless it is every other word) but it's just a personal preference, and I'm sure if any of my family heard me swear it would be the shock of the century. 

The reason I started my diary was to give me something to do in the summer holiday. I'm really grateful that I did start it, because I've actually succeeded in keeping it up. I am currently on diary no. 25. Here's the opening to my latest diary:

Friday 15th April 2016

Today my alarm went off at 4 o'clock!  I had to be up early because today is the day I aimed to have my dissertation done by. The print shop opens at 8:30, and I managed to get to uni and in the library for 7:30. I had everything completed by 9:00 and went to the PRINT SHOP

That's the difference between me now and me as a teenager. I didn't care about much when I was younger, and I would laze about doing not very much. These days, I am up early and I like to achieve something before 9:00. If I ever wake up at 9:00, that's classed as a lie-in. However, when was the last time I wrote in my diary?

Saturday 20th August 2016. That's six days ago, almost a week. A lot has happened in that week, and I'll most likely update my diary tomorrow on everything that has happened. Sometimes I'm so busy that there's no time to write my diary, or writing everything down takes too long and I'd rather spend that time doing something else or simply reading. 

In my first year of uni, we had to give a five minute presentation on anything at all. I chose 'Being a Diarist' and next Friday I will share the notes I wrote for that presentation! 

Writing a diary is rewarding. Every time I read some of my diaries back, I laugh harder than ever. I break out in a sweat from some of the funny things I write. They aren't funny when I write them, but with hindsight they become hilarious and highly entertaining. At which point I fall in love with my diary all over again. 

Published by Jade Moore