~The Life of a Social Butterfly~ (childhood snippet)

 
Myasthenia Gravis Monster
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...I felt as if I wanted to die, going to school was torture to me, being teased because I looked different. Having people spit on me and shove me, pull my hair, and make fun of me cause my eyes looked different than the average person. Teasing me on a regular basis and knocking my books out of my hand while walking down the hall way. Being 15 years old with Myasthenia Gravis and not knowing much about what was going on within my body was the worst feeling in the world. I wanted to die, I never wanted to go back to school again, but my mother, of course, made me go.

Going home one day when my mother was at work and I and my brother were the only two home. While my brother was in his room playing his game with friends I was in the living room and I decided to go into my mother's room and grab a bottle of her pills. Not sure what they were or what they were for I took a handful (about 8 or 10) quietly closed the door and took them while in the kitchen with a glass of water, took my bath and was attempting to slit my wrist but couldn't find the courage to do so...

Once done taking my bath/shower I got out and felt myself feeling very dizzy and lightheaded so I took it that whatever the pills were that I took was working and I dressed myself and went laid in bed praying that I would fall asleep and never wake up again and the pain I felt would be over...Upon my mother coming home from work she came into my room and woke me up to ask me was I feeling okay and why was I sleep at 8 pm when I normally am to go to bed at 9 pm. I had no idea what time it was when I fell asleep but I did realize that whatever I took just put me to sleep I was unfortunately still alive which at that time utterly disappointed me for this meant another day at a school surrounded by people that I hated and hated me.

My middle school through junior high school years were the worst. My life sucked seriously until I reached high school and things changed for the better a little bit...


To read more you have to wait until my book comes out.... <3

~Social Butterfly~
 











 

Published by Life of a Unique Woman