There is a Fear of Being Alone in My Spirit...

 
 
 
 

There is a Fear of Being Alone in My Spirit...My mind is caught up on feelings of dispare and heartache. No one will ever understand how it feels to love someone who has hurt you and how its so easy for those thoughts to rush into your mind and for your entire mood towards love, life, and that person can change in a heartbeat...

There is a Fear of Being Alone in My Spirit...

No one will ever understand the life a person lives when they deal with anxiety and depression and all they want to do is to feel normal and to love and be loved without someone thinking that they are throwed-off and someone so lovingly put it but all in all sometimes you truly can't control your true feelings for one minute you love them and the second minute you can't stand the ground that they walk on.

There is a Fear of Being Alone in My Spirit...

Living with these illnesses and to top it off having Thyroid disease as well causes one such as myself to love another in a way that is indescribable a way that even I don't always understand, more or less the person that you love does. Its almost like having a little anxiety, bi-polarism, and schizophrenia all combined together but under it all, underneath all of the pain and all of the confusion lies a little girl that just genuinely wants someone to take her in his arms and love her unconditionally, never cheat on her or do anything to break her heart or give her any reason to not trust him or doubt his word.

There is a Fear of Being Alone in My Spirit...

I tend to hold on to God's unchanging hand for so far he is the one and only man besides my son who has not done me wrong or broken my heart but every relationship I have been in I have given my all and have been the one at the end of the day to walk away with a broken heart and a bucket full of tears that have spilled out of these eyes of mine, and yet I don't stop, I keep on trying, keep on being willing and able to walk back into the ring and try Love again...
 

 
 

There is a Fear of Being Alone in My Spirit, and I don't know how to fight it, There is a Fear of Being Alone in My Spirit and I don't know how to hide it,

There is a Fear of Being Alone in My Spirit, and I can't seem to shake free,
There is a Fear of Being Alone in My Spirit and its truly deep inside of me...I have tried to hide from it, ran as fast as I could but it just found me again and took control of my heart again. I don't know what to do, don't know where to turn, those who I thought had my back, made fun of me and left. They say I am insane and I don't know what I want, but you try living a life in my world and what it feels like when you get hurt...
 
There is a Fear of Being Alone in My Spirit...and I don't know what to do...
 
There is a Fear of Being Alone in My Spirit...and God I am crying out to YOU because only YOU know what I should do...

Published by Life of a Southern Queen