Following the Istanbul suicide bombing at Ataturk Airport, the deadliest terror attack that the city faced this year, I am rather nervous to announce my departure to Istanbul next week. 

Why? Are you crazy? 

It is true that many people have cancelled their trips and many people are avoiding Turkey completely due to the high terror threat that the country has been under by the Islamic State this year. It is also true that there is a campaign called #Don'tGoTurkey going crazy to prevent people from virtually endangering their lives. 

Yet here I am, pressured by last minute preparations for a month long trip! 

If we dismiss the fact that I have family in Turkey as a reason for this otherwise illogical trip, we had already booked the flight tickets before things had terribly escalated.

Still not a legitimate reason?  Think a life is worth more than a bunch of flight tickets? Let me explain.

I am a big believer in fate and that the universe is conspiring to help each one of us reach our ultimate destiny. In other words, if I'm supposed to (sorry about the morbid language) die in Turkey due to the ceaseless hatred between religions and races, despite it being extremely unfair and angering, it will happen. I won't be able to stop my death, or an injury or something as simple as losing my phone if it is supposed to happen. 

Following the guidelines of that philosophy, I would be missing out on precious family time and an opportunity to experience a different country due to fear if I do not go. I understand why I sound crazy and completely out of it. I understand this is risk-taking at its finest but I would feel defeated if I didn't fulfil this summer with the plans that had been made months ago, all because I have a chance of potentially dying. 

I'm not going to deny the fear and anxiety that settled in me when I read the news on 29th June and I'm not going to lie and say that I am not afraid today. However, people tend to think the worst in most cases. I know people living in Istanbul who are still attending festivals, who are still going to Bodrum to bathe in the sun, who are still skydiving in Cappadocia. 

Casualties, tragedies, deaths. They happen everywhere, all the time, every second. I am not trying to compare mass-scale terrorism to everyday accidents but simply pointing out that there is danger everywhere you go. 

I am not going to succumb to hatred and war. 

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What would you do?

Published by Diren Dag