On the morning of day 6, I am delighted to say that I HAD MY FIRST POST-FAST NATURAL BOWEL MOVEMENT. If you didn't already think I was crazy, you probably do now. Lol, but I am really excited, happy, and grateful that it finally transpired! 

 

I had been worried that I had screwed up my digestive system even more by taking intestinal cleansing products and using enemas throughout the fast and during week 1 of refeeding. But I kept trusting in my body every day and praying to God. I cannot stress enough how much PATIENCE and TRUST was required for me to not cave in and use an enema or a colon cleanse type product. I have a lengthy and extensive past of using laxatives. Six days of not having a bowel movement was pushing me to the edge. Even though I have been eating very small amounts of food, there was a certain degree of discomfort in not eliminating. Plus, I have the tendency to want a quick fix to end constipation, rather than trusting and allowing my body to evacuate on its own time. I am very proud of myself for waiting, and feel very optimistic that my digestion will be better now than it has ever before.

 

In the afternoon, I crashed. Started feeling really tired and had a headache.

 

Food for the day:

  • 7:00am - ~1 pint green juice
  • 8:00am - 1/4 mini watermelon
  • 1 quart green juice
  • 12:30pm - 1/4 + 1/8 mini watermelon
  • 2:00pm - booch
  • 5:00pm - 1/4 + 1/8 mini watermelon; 8 oz. spiralized cucumber, 8 oz. cherry tomatoes, kraut
  • 8:45pm - 8 oz. spiralized cucumber, 8 oz. tomato, kraut

 

I was really hungry after a challenging evening yoga practice from 7:00pm-8:30pm. Ordinarily, I wouldn’t eat that late, but I felt called to have something light before bed. I do not want to make a habit out of this.

 

The late eating may also be linked to a major emotional release I experienced earlier in the day during an intense, hip-opening yin practice. I cried and cried as we opened the hips, as memories from childhood flashed before my eyes. Clearly, the work of my ACA program is manifesting in trauma release from my time as a young girl. I was crying tears I had been forbidden to cry, and feeling the anger and pain I had stuffed deep inside myself. I empathized with my true self that felt so unsafe that she had to go into hiding to allow my false self to please my family and be the person I thought they wanted and needed me to be.

 

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Day 7 was AWESOME! I awakened from a night of deep sleep. Had no appetite, and went to the farmers market. Poo update: I had two BMs. I spent the afternoon and early evening participating in the Dragon Boat Races, a fundraiser for the Children’s Coalition in Northeast Louisiana. I raced on my local yoga studio’s team and had a blast connecting with the yogis and spending all day outside in the sunshine and on the water.

 

Food for the day:

  • throughout the morning: 1 quart green juice and ~6-8 oz. kombucha
  • 11:45am - 1/2 mini watermelon
  • 3:00pm - 1/2 mini watermelon
  • 6:00pm - 2 spiralized cucumbers with ~1 cup cherry tomatoes, kraut, 3 green onion tips

 

All in all, I am incredibly pleased with how the refeeding process went for week 2. My digestive system is clearly working once again, and I trust that a lot of healing is in the works. I am dedicated to abstaining from enemas and colon cleansing products, as I am aware that is an area of imbalance and excess for me. I need to give my gut an honest chance to heal, and that can only happen if I am patient and stop interfering with its natural healing process!

 

Moreover, I truly feel liberated from food addiction. My appetite is reasonable, and I am feeling very nourished in terms of actual food and the other important aspects of my life—career, movement, spirituality, and relationships. I am dedicated to continuing the self-care that is working for me to cultivate ever deeper levels of emotional sobriety!