I Deserve Better  

Young N*gga Preach 

I've learned a lesson I wish I didn’t have to, or at least not this way. I used to believe everyone was good but learned at very early age that wasn't true. Naively I believed treating people the way I wanted to be treated meant they'd actually treat me the way I treated them. Stupidly I would love people expecting them to love me the same way I loved them. Same thing with respect, even though you have to give respect to give it. Assumed if you need someone then you don’t shit on them and expect them to still  be there.  

You Made A Fool Of Me  

I never met someone so damn deceitful who expected so much of people. A liar who demanded everyone be nothing but honest with them. Someone so emotional but careless of everyone's feelings. I believe what goes around comes around and karma's a bitch you don’t want to fuck with. My father was murdered by his "friends" so I've always known that it's the ones closest to you or the ones you love the most that hurt you the worst. What I can't understand is  how someone could do wrong, say they're sorry and not be sorry.  

Not Everyone Deserves A Second Chance 

I've been giving someone chance after chance after chance to keep making a fool of me because they claimed they were sorry. I'm not even mad at them, I'm mad at myself. How could I expect so much from someone so childish. I date older men because I don’t have time for the immature young boy games, but I'm learning age has nothing to do with the maturity of  a man. 

He Wasn't Man Enough For Me 

I'm glad to say that I'm done trying to be there for someone undeserving of my love, loyalty, time and respect. I've never met a man more bitchmade than me. I always told him, you're gonna need me long before I ever need you, and he's seeing that. Someone with insecurities, not accepting of themselves, can't love anyone else. Nor can they give love. If you need someone to acknowledge your every move to make them feel better, you need to go back to preschool. Someone who can't be taken for their word, needs to stay the fuck away from me. LIES LIES LIES, the perfect way to find yourself on my shit list. It's sad I'm more of a man than you. Best of luck. 

Published by ShylahBoss Lee