The concept for this story started when everybody started talking about chasing their dreams and not letting anybody else destroy them. It started me thinking about what will be able to destroy them and, at first, I was thinking about the negative ideas other people could give you within the reality of the world.

This would not have made a very interesting story. However, the concept of dreams never really left me behind and it was always playing somewhere in the back of my mind. I just needed to find an interesting way to bring the idea to life.

This started when I heard the song Kings and Queens by the band 30 seconds to Mars. One of the lines of this song is simply “in defense of our dreams”. This started me thinking about ways people could defend their dreams, or even if there was another power that would enable dreams to be defended.

From there the idea of the Dream Guardian’s came into my mind and then I built the whole idea of who they were and what they were trying to do. I made the equal but opposite power of a Dream Walker who would be the type of person that is able to steal someone’s dreams without them even knowing it was happening. I came up with the idea that they could manipulate people’s dreams to achieve what they wanted.

Just about then the film Inception came out and I went to go and see it in the hope that it was not too similar to my own idea. As it turned out, it was nothing like my idea of people fighting over a person’s dream. It was more about the idea of stealing ideas, or planting new ones in people’s heads. However, it further inspired me to carry on with the idea that was now in my head.

In the end, I would say that this was a complete obsession and the only way that I would be able to stop thinking about the idea was to write it down. I actually wrote the first draft as a piece of fan fiction but when I read it back the characters were very Mary Sue like. So, it was back to the drawing board where I had to start from scratch.

The story took a while to build itself up within my mind once again but now I am back to the level of obsession that it was at before I began the first draft.

I completely believe that I am the only person that can write this story with the characters I am using. My protagonist is a girl called Alice. She is disabled and so am I. However, I have given her a different disability from the one that I battle every day so it will not come across like some kind of memoir. However, even though it is different I am sure that I empathize with the way that she would be thinking about the world and how she fits in.

My antagonist, Warren, represents everything that I dislike about the world. Not that I believe the world is cruel like he is but that is just the way I needed him to be so that people did not sympathize with him. What I mean is that he represents someone trying to decide a life for someone else without actually consulting them about what they want to do. For me, he is the oppressing nature of the world that wants everybody to fit into boxes. Especially, but not limited to, disabled people where other people believe they know best.

It is no wonder that my protagonist rebels against this. I am well aware that I would. I am writing this book in the hope of better understanding myself and the way that I think.

Of course, this is not the reason I made it a paranormal romance. This was to give me a storyline for my captured Dream Guardian, Jordan. I believe it just adds another dimension to the story and makes it less about the thinking process that Alice is going through within the book.

All of this is exactly why I feel the need to write this story down.

Of course, I hope that people want to read it and that they enjoy it when they do that by actual reason for writing is more a personal one and it is almost a spiritual journey into my own mind.


Thank you for reading my ramblings about why I am writing my story. If any of this resonates with you then please let me know. I also don’t mind if you tell me that you think it is a bad idea :-) I am not going to bite your head off.

Published by Angie Trafford