Finding yourself

Well, I spend a lot of time in what I usually call my world, it’s just like I have another reality.

Well it’s not “just like” I really have.

But sometimes I think about the reality for another people, and about what they think, their ideas, their options… and I realize that they were quite different from mine.

All kinds of doubts begin to emerge, from the easiest ideas to questioning, to the most difficult ones.

When it happens it’s like my world is completely lying down.

I have doubts that I never thought to have or fears that are usually hidden, anyone can bring to the top of our mind ideas or realities that don`t seem to be the best for you (the ones that make us happier) but we have a tendency to think that maybe other people may be right.

And then we think “but after all what is wrong with me?”; “Why do not people understand my choice or my reality?”

Well to answer this, no, there is nothing wrong with anyone when you have unusual options or different ideas from other people.

Well maybe people are happier having that thought in their world, but if it doesn’t make you happy, if that doesn’t make sense in your mind then why be stuck in their world to feel unhappy?

When it happens, when we get down we need to find ourselves and see what makes more sense in our head.

For this I just go to the porch and look at the sky, at the stars, at the moon, I absorb the tranquility and the peace that they transmit to me.

I find myself there, it’s in that place, at that moment, where I am myself, where I find my world again, where I can be myself without anyone judging me.

This place is defined by each of us, it depends on where we feel best.

If we think “where do I find my total happiness?”

And I’m not referring to what I usually call a safe place where we spend most of our time and where we hide when something is wrong.

For example mine is my room and however where I feel better is on the porch.

I mean the place where we feel free, sure of ourselves.

Then we find ourselves as lost as we are, or at least we find peace and happiness, even if for a few minutes we are in that place, with no one, without problems, just being happy.

No better you than the you that you are
No better life than the life we’re living
No better time for your shine, you’re a star

- Alessia cara

“Scars to your beautiful”

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