Today my head was a mess since I woke up to go to bed.
All day I’ve been trying to make me realize that my doubts were not meant to be and that everything was going to be okay.
But nothing made me believe it.
Many things I had given for certain, couldn’t accept them.
It was as if some barrier didn’t let me reach the truth.
I was not taking it, it was like I was not able to find my way and myself.
This lasted all day, until the night came and for nothing on this world I could sleep.
So I took some time just for myself, I deleted everything, it was just me and my cat, everything in the dark and I sat on the bed with my legs crossed.
I started to breathe slowly for a few minutes without thinking of anything.
When I became more relaxed I began to think about the doubts I had today.
I was thinking for a good bit, I really went to the bottom like I was “in the dark” and then I started to look for points of light, I started to see the good in every thing that bothered me, I started to see that things were not so bad.
And then I realized that I just needed a little bit of peace in my head.
I just needed to be alone, with my true self and notice that I was thinking wrong cause I was stressed.
Now I know what is real and I am happy, Lainie and I will finally be able to sleep.
Published by Filipe Moleiro