So I'm fully aware that I'm new to the ‘MyTrendingStories’ website and that in order to build up my audience I need to be posting consistently.
This is why I would like too apologize for my lack of posts the last month?!, I did actually have a post saved in Drafts but I still had to edit to before I was ready to post it, (its the second of my ‘book wish lists’ which is now published).
If you guys have been reading my page then you may have noticed that after my ‘Lesley Pearse book wish list’ I was M.I.A. for almost a month, well I'm going to be getting personal with you guys for a bit if that’s ok?
Let’s go back to just over a year ago (May/June 2015)….
I have never been confident in pubic and after I was seriously bullied in school I became very much a ‘home bird’, well last April I thought I was ready to start job hunting (after 2 failed college attempts) so I headed to my local Job Center and I was called over to one of the desks. I was FINE… at first, and then she started asking me loads of questions (standard protocol) and well I Freaked out!
Honestly I couldn't tell you exactly what happened after that… I remember ‘freaking out’ and then been in a car on the way home, after that I tried so hard to block out what happened more so out of embarrassment I guess?!
It wasn't that easy though… after that incident, I didn’t take a lot to ‘set me off’ again and I honestly don’t think I left the house for literally almost 2 months. During that time I was very defensive when It was mentioned and I though I could get over it, that’s when my older sister stepped in and I learnt that she had also been going through the same thing and had asked our mom not to tell me because I worry a lot.
She had actually gone and seen her doctor about it and was getting help, so after more ‘arguments’ and stubbornness I decided to see if I could get some help too. I made an appointment with my doctor and actually left the house to go to it, now I not going to lie I did have what I now know was a panic attack but once I was called into the doctor office and calmed down, I told the her (my doctor) what had been going on and well…
I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Depression, and Panic Disorder.
I was started one medication (50mg sertraline a day, later upped to 100mg), and referred to a local counseling service which I had from August-November 2015.
Fast Forward to May 2016
Things started to get bad again… really bad and I didn't know what to do, I thought I was getting better…. I get a serious attack in the middle of a shopping center while shopping for my younger sister’s birthday and was physically sick and then I passed out. That attack just unearthed everything all over again, and whilst It wasn’t an everyday thing. I was having bursts of extreme Anxiety and couldn’t complete a task without feeling like I did it wrong or it wasn’t good enough, I was in the middle of typing up my last post and home alone it caused my latest ‘burst’ of anxiety.
I am looking at going back to counseling in the next couple of months and hopefully I will overcome this obstacle and start posting to the best of my ability for you guys, I just ask you all to be patient with me while I take care of myself physically and mentally.
If you guys are going through anything similar and want to share your stories, Please comment below or even inbox me and I will be happy to talk to you all.
Thank you for reading this, if you did and I will speak to you in my next post
Published by ImJust Lauren