I wish motherhood wasn’t this stressful .. Tiring mentally and physically.
I wish I didn’t say I hate kids when I was younger because being a mother was a blessing for me and changed every side of me.
I wish I would stop feeling stressed whenever you are away from me even though I know you are in good hands.
I wish I would stop panicking when I see you sleeping and I have to make sure you are still breathing.
I wish your pain becomes mine because I can’t bear seeing you cry.
I wish I could stop crying whenever I see you in pain and I stay helpless just holding you.
I wish I could repeat the moment when I gave birth and held you in my arms for the first time.
I wish you keep smiling at me like this everyday when I return from work and hug you.
I wish I would stop over-thinking about your safety.
I wish you would stop growing up so fast because I’m getting overwhelmed by your milestones every month.
I wish I could sleep and hold you next to me not on your crib when you cry and need me.
I wish you keep feeling the joy of splashing me every time I give you a bath.
I wish you keep laughing whenever me and your father do a silly face for you.
I wish I could quit work just to be with you everyday.
I wish you keep needing me even for a hug when you are older.
I wish I can be confident enough to know your needs instead of listening to others.
I wish you would know how much I love you from the moment I knew I was pregnant.
I wish motherhood wasn’t this stressful … I love you son
Published by Rawiya Al-Amri