Bold And Fiercer

“What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.”

I just turned twenty-six last month and I could tell that at my age, I’ve gone through a lot of experiences in the years of my existence. I’ve encountered difficulties and hardships in my life which comprise of heart breaks and deep sorrow – that are inevitable in each humanity. So as I post this article as my birthday blog, I’ll be sharing my short and latest testimony on how did I overcome challenges in life.

I am a believer of Jesus Christ, a Pastor’s kid, and a worship leader. You might think that I’m strong enough because I always stay at church or I’m well rooted with God’s Word. But no! Being a Christian doesn’t mean there’s an exemption in facing trials and challenges. My life has been tested; including my faith, my character, my rational thinking and even my heart has been put through its paces on how strong it is and how long could I fight for my dreams and beliefs. And with all honesty, I almost gave up. Let me share this in a different way – imaginary scenario:

I was experiencing outrageous pain and confusion in a couple of months.  I was so tired emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually. I wanted to stop  at that very moment without thinking about those pros and cons. This kind of feeling was like standing on the edge of a foggy cliff – it’s the end of the road; the time to quit.

But the Lord was so compassionate and gracious! In the midst of my darkest night, in my tip-toed-faith on His promises, He held my hand so tight and pulled me closer into His open arms. As I leaned back, I could hear His heartbeat – the beat that assured me that I wasn’t alone in that battle, that He was and will always be with me. His heartbeat awakened my soul and revived my heart to beat again; to believe and be in-tuned again onto His plans. Then He whispered,

“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me.
My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you?  And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.”

John 14:1-3 (NIV)

The tears in my eyes rushed down my cheeks as I heard His word. God gave me an assurance that He has a better plan for me, and for my entire family. His precious Word was like a pill and a vitamin that really helped me to boost up my confidence in Him.

When I heard His promise, He asked me if I trust Him. When I answered “Yes”, He told me to jump off from that cliff – to jump into a new journey, a new beginning, and the unseen future. Though it was so dark and I couldn’t see anything, Iboldly jumped out from my comfort zone into an unknown Island. I have a lot of worries, doubts, and fears but His Word was so clear enough for me to obey His command. I have nothing to brag about other than a small as a mustard seed of FAITH – FAITH that can move a mountain. 

When we say bold, it means (of a person, action, or idea) showing an ability to take risks; confident and courageous. While fierce or fiercer (of a feeling, emotion, or action) showing a heartfelt and powerful intensity. So, why am I saying this mantra “Bold and Fiercer“at the age of 26? Because I’m taking it seriously; I mean it! That I’ll be facing this new year and new journey with all boldness and excitement. I might say that I’ve gone through a lot, but I know that there will be moments where my faith and beliefs will be put to test again. In spite of that, I do believe that God is bigger than anything else in this world, that the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords’ is on my side, and He’s fighting for me too.

Challenges made me strong but the power of the Lord made me even stronger.

Rosy 

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