I hate those females that are ALWAYS in relationships, ALWAYS in LOVE, jumping from dick to dick because they don’t want to be ALONE. Postman and I were talking about this last night. I learned a long time ago you can be in a relationship and STILL be alone. I know I've been bitching a lot lately about "dreamman" but truthfully that’s me being mad at myself. I used to be one of those girls, being that I came from a broken home and just wanted to be loved, but you can't make someone love you. My love and care for people is genuine and comes from me treating people how I'd want to be treated. My heart's turning cold and i'm becoming a hateful person. Anyone who's ever wronged me may want to do right by me. Cause if shit don't get right, imma go right AROUND it.
Nothing irk me more than when a man tries to convince me he has my best interest at heart. Like really? Just stop, that doesn’t make me feel anymore loved than I already did. Anyone that knows me, knows I hate repetitive shit! I always say, "what's already known doesn’t need to be spoken about." You say you have my best interest at heart? Well why are you having to reassure me of it? It's funny because the times when someone is reminding me they have my best interest at heart is when their trying to do some grimy shit.
When I make a decision that ends up being hurtful, it's okay because I did it. Now when someone who's supposed to have my back does ANYTHING to deceive me, my serial killer psycho switch flips on and SHIT GOES DOWN. This is why I don’t have any friends and I'm not pressed on a relationship. The people closest to you hurt you the most, and I don’t wanna go to prison.
Remember, as long as you serve a purpose in someone's life, they'll always keep you around! It's a dog eat dog world and only the strongest survive.
Published by ShylahBoss Lee